My Baby, Nala Jan 1997-Aug 7th 2012

by Nicolette
(Ontario, CA)

It was just yesterday when I made that decision to let you go. We spent 15 wonderful years together, from hugs to tugging on socks and playing in the water. When all the kids were gone it was you and I to face the world. You always had a big smile, literally. And a wagging tail and unending love to give me.

I know that we are here to take care of our pets and watch over them when they need to eat, go for a walk, need a hug or just a pat on the head. But what happens when you have to make that devastating decision to let them be at rest?

My life without you now is such a hard one. The tears roll down my face and I taste each and every one with salt and such a sting to my heart. This morning I woke up and went downstairs, only to see your empty bed.

It was so painful for the last month or so to have to tug on your collar and help you down the steps and to the yard. You still had some spark and play, but for the last few weeks that spark was gone and I could see just fear and anxiety in your eyes.

I loved you so much that the ride to the vet was such a long drive for me. I realized it was the first time that I was going to leave and not have you come back home with me. As you sat there on the floor with your back legs giving out and panting, looking at me, I just knew that I could not help you no matter what I did. The goodbye was just so painful and still stabs at my heart and soul.

I will miss you, my best friend and love. You gave me the best 15 years of your life and I did my best to love and care for you. I know you are in a better place now, and like I told you .. I will see you again some day my sweet, sweet Nala.

It says that this writing hopefully will ease the pain but I'm not sure when it will ease up. My stomach is in knots and my thoughts are such a mess.

I know it was the best to do for you and I know that I made the right decision and stopped the pain and fear for you. You were not my dog, not the dog that I used to know. However, looking into your eyes, you were still my Nala.

I have asked god to keep you safe and wrap his arms around you. I know that you are running around now and have no pain. I miss you, Nala. I will always, always have a place in my heart with you.

xoxoxo

Love,
Mom
Shamus
Pamela
Taylor
Julian

You will be missed.

Comments for My Baby, Nala Jan 1997-Aug 7th 2012

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My Heart Goes Out to You
by: Baxter's mom

I stumbled across your words when I was googling about a condition my dog was recently diagnosed with, and your words completely resonated with me.

The end is near with Baxter and my heart already grieves. I dread that last final journey to the veterinarian as well, and the thought of seeing his empty bed just breaks my heart.

Your Nala sounds just wonderful. How lucky she was to be so loved.

I don't have the words to express what I want to say, so I will go and hug my dog, and cherish the time we have, however long it may be.

Thank You
by: Nicolette

Thank you for your comments regarding my Nala and the post. It truly means a lot to me.

We are truly intertwined with our pets in this world, with their hearts and ours. I wish there was a magic wand or certain word to say but there is not. It's day 4 for me and I see that it's going to be such a long road ahead.

Hugs to each of you and much love. I'm sure the four little paws are right there with you. Be blessed!

Nala
by: Dorothy Morrell

I also experienced just what you went through 3 months ago with my dog Zoli, and lost my dog Trixie 3 months before Zoli.

I feel your pain, but we will be with them in a blink of an eye! God bless. Know that Nala's spirit lives on in your home.

Sending you HUGS.

Grief
by: Mackie- B

It's been 24 weeks since I went through the same. Every Thursday I have the worst of days. They say it gets easier with time but not for me. 11.5 years of love is hard to put aside.

I break down and cry out of nowhere. Reading these helps a little but I don't think therapy will help.

Good luck to you and your family.

Keith

Nala
by: zantira

I'm really sorry for your loss, Nicolette. I know how you feel. On Monday 6th August 2012, I had to say goodbye to my baby Axel after 15 years as well.

I truly do not understand the people who say "it's just an animal, get over it." These people will never really understand what love is. To love an animal, especially a dog, is one of the greatest gifts given us. We can only be grateful that they bless us with their beautiful presence.

It is the most painful thing to have to say goodbye to someone you love so much. The pain never really goes away but with each day you learn to rejoice in the beautiful memory of your baby.

I hope that one day your pain lessens enough to smile again.

Take care.

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