Sasha, My Most Beautiful Darling
by Jamie Smith
A couple of days ago, my beautiful darling Sasha had a seizure and couldn't get up again. She was trying to but couldn't. She looked so very very scared because she didn't know what was going on.
I put a blanket over her and kept calming her down and comforting her when she tried to get up. I kissed her and stroked her head and kept telling her that she was a good girl and that she was loved and that everything was going to be ok because I was there with her. She understood and eventually she just lay there and wasn't struggling any more.
We lay there for nearly an hour like that until the vet came. She had her head on my arm, with my arm around her. She knew she was loved. It was all very calm, quiet and dignified in the end. I was holding her head and I felt her last breath and felt her head get heavy in my arms.
I kissed her as she went and blew warm air onto her fur and told her that I loved her, so very very much. I was crying so hard. It was heartbreaking but I'm glad I was there with her, to support her when the end came.
Rest in peace, gorgeous. X