If Only

by K.T.

If I only knew that you were in pain
I would have tried everything to ease that
If I only knew that eight years is all I have
I would have told you how much I love you
If I only knew you'd leave me soon
I would have spent more time with you
If only I could trade years of my life
I would trade some to be with you still

I am here sitting in sadness
because there is a lot that I should have done
Even if I cry a river of tears
I know that right now
if only is all I have.