My Love Kong

by Debra Modica
(Ladson SC, USA)

My beautiful boy

My beautiful boy

On the morning of my son Steve's 21st birthday, my dog Kong of eleven years died of something called the bloat. It is very common in German Shepherds and it happens so quickly, with no warning at all.

He was everything to me. I swear he was so human he could understand everything I said, even if it was in paragraphs.

I am having a hard time dealing with his death and I don't know what to do. I know he is with God at the rainbow bridge and it is supposed to make me feel better but I am so depressed and sad and blaming myself. I just want him back, and that is not going to happen. I will have to wait to see his beautiful eyes because I know he is waiting for me and loves me so much.

I am sorry I did not save you, my boy, but you are in a better place now. I love you with all my heart. I will never ever forget you. If there is any way you could give me a little sign, I will take anything, my love. I miss you so damn much, my heart is breaking every day.

You rest in peace now, my love. I will try and go on without you as best I can. I love you my beautiful boy.

Love, Mommy

My heart is breaking without you here,
Going on without you is my biggest fear.
The time we had was not enough,
Living without you is going to be rough.
I miss you more and more each day,
I am equally sad in every way.
In my mind I see you my boy,
Your life brought me so much joy.
I am lost without you in my life,
You never got to have your kids with your wife.
So I have nothing left of you except for memories,
And the gentle breeze from your special trees.
I will love you always and may you never forget,
That having you in my life I will never regret.

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On Your Loss
by: Kim and Nya, Nate too

Kong is always in your heart, the one true place of peace, the one true place of joy, happiness and all the other feelings we experience in our life.

I have a German Shepherd, Nya. She is in my life presently; and how I wish for her to be by my side forever. But this is a useless wish, for I know that cannot be. She will be called upon by God, to fill another heart that has been broken by someone else's loss.

My heart goes out to you; know that you are not alone in your grief. Hugs...

Rainbow Bridge
by: Anonymous

Thank you for all your kind words for Kong.

On missing your Kong
by: Mary Ann

Dear Debra, believe me when I say that, although you feel alone in your grief, you are not. So many understand. I lost my Beau on July 19. My love of 11 years. It is hard and will hurt for a long time. I tried journaling my thoughts of him and my feelings.

Know that God is happy with you and even though He took Kong, He knows you have enough love in your heart to give away again. Just follow the plan as it unfolds.

by: Wayne

I am so sorry for your loss. The empty feeling we have when we lose a pet is terrible. I wish they could stay with us longer.

It does get better with time, but we never forget them. Try to focus on all the fun times you all had with Kong. I'm sure he is thinking of you and the good times while he waits at the Rainbow Bridge.

Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

So sorry about Kong
by: Karen

So, so, so sorry for your loss of Kong! I extend my heartfelt sympathy to you. I know exactly how you are feeling now, Debra.

My German Shepherd, Tiger, died pretty suddenly 3 months after his 9th birthday. This happened in June. For weeks after, I was in a total mess, feeling shocked, like "this ain't happening," "this is a nightmare," "when am I going to wake up," crying all the time and having a rough time trying just to get through another day. Tiger was so much a part of me and the family and to live without him around felt very strange.

This is how you are feeling too about Kong. Talk about feeling like a fish out of water! Cry, you must. Don't be afraid to do it; it will help ease the pain a whole lot.

I remember walking from room to room in our house and crying buckets of tears as I imagined Tiger lying down in certain places. I swear my heart was going to pop with all the pain and sadness that I felt.

It is only with the passage of time that you will come out of this depression. I am reaching out to give you a BIG BEAR HUG as this is surely a most difficult period of your life.

Kong is resting peacefully in Doggie Heaven. I know you miss him tremendously and wish you could see him one more time, alive, but we all have to accept the inevitable passing of our dear pets.

I pray that God gives you comfort at this most sorrowful time. Peace and Love to you.

by: Anonymous

The best thing to do is pour your love of Kong into a shelter dog. There is one just waiting for your love.

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