My Beautiful Sheltie Jet

by Miss Dolours Barker
(UK)

Oh Jet, I wish I could hold you in my arms again and kiss your beautiful sweet face. You were my little shadow, my heart and soul, and I feel like my heart's been ripped out. Nothing's the same anymore.

Jazz (my 3 year old Sheltie) grieves for you. He has no spark anymore, and no longer lays with me on the bed all night like he used to. He lays facing the front door, waiting for you to come home. I don't know what to do.

I long for you to be with us. My heart aches for you. I can't bear the thought of you not being here with us to hold and touch. I miss you barking at the post man through the window or when we are out walking. I miss you barking like you always did when we went out to the beach or other places to let everyone know you were there.

I miss giving you your dinner and the excitement you had running into the lounge with Jazz in tow and how you couldn't wait for me to put it down. I miss listening to you and just looking at you. I miss the way you jumped up and gave kisses like a little human whenever I wanted them. I miss you pushing my tray up in the air when having my meal and I miss watching you play with Jazz, and miss you joining in singing happy birthday.

Most of all I miss your presence, you being here, by my side wherever I am. I feel so lonely without you. You really were special, one in a million. I wanted to keep you for ever and take away your pain. Right until we lost you on that fateful day and even though you really weren't well, you still tried to give kisses, and although you couldn't manage to greet me at the door when I arrived home, I could see a little wag at the end of your tail.

Letting you go on 19/11/2011 is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I held you close in my arms as you drifted into heaven. I felt your pain melt away. I just wish you had been at home, my big regret.

God bless you my sweet baby, I will always hold you close in my heart for ever and will see you one day in heaven with my Ebony.