Hiedi Girl

by Ben S

I lost my dog Hiedi two months ago. It still hasn't got easier, as everyone told me it would.

She was the most amazing dog. We grew up together and she was a sister, a best friend and so much more to me.

She was 16 years old, and her back legs wouldn't work anymore. During the last weeks of her life, she couldn't walk. I was currently doing an 8 week course.

I live 15 minutes out of town, and during the course we would get 3 breaks. In each of these I would race home, walk her outside while supporting her back legs and take her to the toilet on the lawn. I would light the fire in the last break so she was not cold.

As she got older she became less of the family's dog and more mine as I took over responsibility of her care and needs. I did not mind caring for her. In fact, I enjoyed it but the worst thing was I became fully dedicated to her, spending about 7 to 8 hours a day with her plus spending 7 hours a day at the course.

Going from that to never seeing her again was and still is the hardest thing I have ever gone through. I made a recording of her sleeping and I still can not sleep without this playing, or medication.

I kiss her photo every day and have weekly breakdowns and look at pictures of her while crying at her grave, wishing for one more moment with the most gentle, placid girl ever. I can not look at black labs without becoming sad.

I beleve she is the reason I am still alive today as I was extremely depressed while going through the early years of high school because of bullying that was consistent every day for two years. I wanted to kill myself and she was the only one I could talk to and trust.

Every time I looked at her, she made me feel like everything will be ok. Any time I had a bad day, I knew she would be there to cheer me up.

So Hiedi girl, I would just like to say I miss you so much with all my heart! And I will love you forever and ever.

25-12-1996 to 19-6-2012 ❤

-Rest In Peace Hiedi-

Comments for Hiedi Girl

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Are You Okay?!
by: Anonymous

Read your beautiful tribute to Hiedi. I am more worried about you. Whenever you feel really bad, please try to talk to somebody close to you about it, okay? People can give you comfort and love too.

Hugs from New Zealand!

I'm So Sorry
by: Laurie, Holly's mom

I understand your pain. Nobody can understand it until they go through it. The love you had for Hiedi was like the love I had for my Holly.

She has been gone for a year and a half and I am still not over it. I miss her so much, it still breaks my heart.

I'm sorry you endured bullying, but your pup was always there for you.

Please understand there are people just like you who are mourning also for their babies. I will never get over Holly. She needed me when I got her and then it turned out I needed her.

My heart is with yours, crying for our girls. She loved you.

by: Kathy

My deepest sympathy. My words won't comfort you, but my heart knows your pain. We never stop loving them.

You became her carekeeper. Bless you for taking care of her and loving her so much.

I lost my girl, Allie, 5-24-12.

With Sympathy
by: Martha

I am sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. Having experienced the absence of your precious Hiedi, after so many years together, is going to take time to adjust. It's OK to grieve. Know that everyone on this site understands your pain and sorrow - our caring thoughts are with you.

by: Anonymous

Sorry to hear about your Hiedi. She sounded like a lovely dog. I miss my dog Nita so much. She had lost the use of her back legs too, and was nearly 15 when she died.

Thinking of you... Take care.

by: Luba

May God bless you and keep Hiedi forever in his loving embrace.

You Are Not Alone...
by: Biggs

I am so sorry for your loss. Hiedi sounds like she was truly an awesome dog. 16 years old, that is quite something.

Hang in there, buddy. Grieve as long as you need to and don't let anybody tell you otherwise. You have been an absolute hero to your dog. I firmly believe, one day, all of us who have loved and lost our precious furry friends will be united again.

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