Buddy Boy - My Hero

by Kelly Cook
(Leicester, England)

I love you, Buddy.❤️ I miss you so much. I cry every time I'm alone and I think of you. I hope you know that. You did so much for me. I had no idea.

I'm still heartbroken over 2 years on. When will I stop hurting so much? Why can't I have you back? Just for a day? I'd never let you go from my arms, Buds. It feels like I've lost a kid almost. But I can't show it because you're a dog.

Were you hurting before you died? Did I do the right thing? Are you ok? I feel guilt for putting you down, Buds. Was I wrong? Could tablets have sorted you out? Please show me you don't hate me - or at least that you are alright wherever you are.

You've got to be somewhere. I hope you are near me. I hope you enjoyed being my companion. I have so many doubts now and wish I had showed you more love. But I did show you love, didn't I, Buds? The love you understand. I remember some times I just held you and sobbed into you. You took it all in, licking my tears off my face and being so attentive and loving. It was like you knew what I was telling you and you were trying to tell me... 😢

You are such a good dog, Buds, and you know I told you that over and over again. I just didn't realise how good you really were. The kids... OMG, you would love Sophie, she would completely adore you. Lauren weeps for you still now. She's 11. Kacey was 4 when you left us so she doesn't cry but she mentions you occasionally and the silly things you did and Lauren gets emotional (I do too but you know - gotta hide it from them!).

I'm so afraid that I'll have to go through this horrible heartache in 9-10 years with Roxy. What makes it worse is that I still won't be over you. And put that together with Bruce. It's unbearable!

If I could change one thing out of all that is wrong, I would bring you back as a puppy to have you all over again and again - but minus the destructive staffy chewing up and vandalising ways!!! Ha!

Buds, I love you.😘😘😘😘 I hope your RIP, mate. Until we meet again. Your mummy........🙏🏻🐾❤️

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Our Companions
by: Karen

I lost my beloved Romeo almost 2 years ago. I think of him every day, and always shed a tear.

I, too, had to make a decision to have him put to sleep as he was so poorly. I have always wondered if I made the right decision. He was only 3.

Our love for them will never die. Perhaps we need to focus on the great life we gave them, and that they were very lucky to have loving homes.

From someone who understands. xx

The Rainbow Bridge
by: Tommy Birch

Rest easy, my friend. Your loved one may have passed on but is faithfully awaiting your arrival over The Rainbow Bridge. God bless you.

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