Missing My Baby Gizmo, 11 Years Old

by Daisy
(Brooklyn, N.Y.)

I got Gizmo at 6 weeks old. He was a small chocolate and tan chihuahua so full of life. He was my first dog. I grew to love him so much. He changed me a lot and showed love I never had before. I was with him all the time. I took care of him.

He was smart, loving and playful, and very funny at times, lol. He was very close with us. After losing my husband in April 2012 to cancer, I had to move.

Gizmo kept having panting attacks. After about a year and a half of his panting, I learned it was because of a collapsed trachea. After 6 more months and the terrible storm Sandy, he kept getting it more often. After taking him to the hospital for the second time and vet before that 4 times, I decided to put him to sleep.

After learning what was wrong, I knew he wasn't going to get better. I kind of regret it, thinking I should have waited, but I also didn't want him to suffer anymore. I had to think of his age.

I didn't realize until I got home that he was really gone. I'm so heartbroken, I've cried for two weeks already since his passing. I miss my Gizmo so much. He really took my heart with him. I love the little guy so much.

Now he's with my husband, but I miss him. My place feels so empty without him. Please god, I pray that he's okay and that someday I'll be with them again. I pray for you to forgive me, I did it because I love him.

Thank you, Gizmo, for 11 and a half years of love that you gave us. I'll never forget you, bubby. I love my baby Gizmo.

Gizmo 8/19/01- 12/21/12

Rest in peace, my pet, til we meet again. Please god, give me the strength to be without him. I miss him so much.

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I Am So Sorry for Your Loss
by: Anonymous

I put down my 11 year old Chesapeake Bay/Rottweiler mix named Rocco 6 days ago. I totally understand what you are feeling. I cry every day and hope that heaven is real and that I can see him someday.

Just so you know you are not alone.

Rocco was such an integral part of my life, I don't know what to do without him. I really wanted him to die peacefully, but that didn't happen.

I hope he forgives me too...

Thank you so much
by: Anonymous

Thank you so much. Your prayer is so so, so beautiful. I appreciate it so much.

A Parting Prayer
by: Anonymous

A Parting Prayer

Dear Lord, please open your gates
and call St. Francis
to come escort this beloved companion
Gizmo across the Rainbow Bridge.

Assign him to a place of honor,
for he has been a faithful servant
and has always done his best to please me.

Bless the hands that sent him to you Father,
for they did so in love and compassion,
freeing him from pain and suffering.

Grant me the strength not to dwell on my loss.
But help me remember the details of Gizmo’s life
with the love he had shown me.
And grant me the courage to honor Gizmo
by sharing those memories with others.

Let Gizmo remember me as well
and let him know that I will always love him.
And when it's my time to pass over into your paradise,
please allow Gizmo to accompany those
who will bring me home.

Thank you, Lord,
for the gift of Gizmo’s companionship
and for the time we've had together.

And thank you, Lord,
for granting me the strength
to give him to you now.

Amen.

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