Forever in Our Hearts

by Angela
(Palm Bay, FL, USA)

Dear Brownie,

I write this with such a heavy heart, I can't seem to stop the awful ache. You were abused and abandoned in life by people who had no regard for you and only wanted you to breed and take your puppies and sell them. They left you to fend for yourself.

When you came to my home, starving and hungry, I fed you, I gave you water and I so wanted to do more. I tried for over a year to catch you and I begged for help from so many agencies and no one would help me. I tried to trap you, I tried to win you over with the food and treats. I would spend my weekends just sitting and watching you for hours, waiting for you to finally trust me and come to me. You were so unsure, yet you looked at me with those longing eyes. I wanted to give you a loving home and protect you from all the harms of the world.

You finally would bark and play a little when I would bring you your very favorite treat, the busy bone. I knew time was of the essence with you living outside, alone and unprotected, but I guess I did not do enough. I failed you somehow because Sunday, August 7th, 2011, when I went to bring you your breakfast, I found you in your favorite spot, not moving. You had been hit by a car and died. I was not there with you in your last moments and I wish I could have been there to comfort you and, yes, protect you.

I want you to know how much I loved you and wanted you to be with me at home where you could finally know what it meant to be loved and cared for. This life is very unfair and can be very cruel, but I hope I brought you some comfort and happiness with the days we spent together. I hope you loved your breakfast and dinner and all your special treats. I never got to pet you in life but I finally got to pet you in death. You were so wonderfully soft and smooth.

How beautiful and special you were. You will always be in my heart and soul. I am hoping that one day I will be with you again at Rainbow Bridge with all my other beloved animals from over the years so we can all be one big family together. I will never forget your beautiful amber eyes.

If I failed you in anyway, I am sorry, I love you so very much. Rest in peace, my beautiful Brownie. You were so loved. We placed a beautiful memorial for you. You deserved so much better from life. You deserved to know what a hug felt like, a belly rub and so much love!

Forever in my heart!